Date : Saturday, April 25, 2009
Time : 1:25 AM
Title : Rantings, & posting.

This is a long post, don't read if you don't have any patient [: & as well, i don't need any comments on what i'm posting.


This few days is TERRIBLE!

First, i've a OFC presentation this coming Monday, 27 April 2009. It's so stressful for me, because in my entire life, i didn't do any presentation to so many people before. & next, i've a SBM bazaar coming up on 7th May 2009, which is more more stressful for me. & lastly, i've a journal reflection to be done by 8th May 2009. Oh well, i gotta keep refrain myself from going out from next week onwards. I gotta stay home & complete everything. I want to get good GPA point for this term, i know that my attendance is surely gonna pull me down. Like all my previous posts, i've been skipping quite a number of lessons already. & i can't catch up with what lecturers is teaching right now. Sigh.. I don't know if it's because of all this happens, that make me totally lose interest in going lessons ):

Next, if any of you've notice all my previous posts. I'm recently troubled over friends' stuffs. Today, i've make a decision.. To let that matter rest. I don't know whether am i making a wise choice, but i know.. I'm worn out. I've no more strength to carry on finding out the truth. If they think that, betraying me, backstabbing me is fun & happy, then let them go ahead. I'll just live life with a clear conscious. Oh well, i finally understand why'd Weifeng say certain things. Well, he know i know, it's enough. Some people cannot be relied on, some people can't be trusted. My weak point is, i trust people too easily. Time & again, i tried understand people in my life. Well, either they don't give me a chance, or i failed to do so. Certain things, it's best if i could just shut up & see things going. Now, i finally know.. Certain people is such a hypocrite. Afterall, secondary school friends understand me most. It's not the time of time that we knew each other, but they'd never once look down on me just because of my 'unique', 'weird' character & attitude. Oh well, afterall.. They're still the ones, i could relied on. That's what friends are for, ain't it?

Last, things between me & him isn't getting any better. Instead, it's getting worse. 3 days, we never even talk. How great is our condition right now? Well, not to deny.. I do missed him. But what i could do? I can't do much, i know i seems not to be trying to forget him.. But i know it myself that, i'm already trying very very hard to forget him. Nevertheless, i still do have a little hope that he'll contact me one day which i know it's totally impossible :/ Oh well, miracle? Let's wait & see.

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Apology for the ranting part ontop. Well, humans need place to rant stuffs to. But well, i think that afterall, this is a better place for me to type out all my feelings. I'm not gonna spoil my mood, just for this coming Sunday :D Although big aunty came visit me this afternoon, but well.. I'm gonna maintain the best condition on Sunday :D I want sit elephant!!! So excited can. LOL.

Today, Weifeng is the bad guy! Serious, he made 2 person cry. Hahahaha. Well, i'd make a promise to him saying that i'll control myself. Yup, i did! :D But serious, then waited for Weifeng to finish eating breakfast, then i can start talking. Even before i start saying anything, Weifeng whisper something into *'s ear. Then she started crying. Like omg, i seriously don't know whether to continue anot. But well, i did. & since she say no & no for the answer, then forget it. I won't pursue further. & that explains above why i'd let this matter rest. Went for class, & OFC was seriously a boring module. Keep disturbing Sarah, & ended class at 12plus. Waited for Yeetheng, & Michelle to end school with Weifeng. Sat down & started talking about crap stuffs, & for no reason.. We'd drag to those more personal issues. & seriously, i come to know so much much stuffs i don't think i should know. Then Michelle suddenly cry also. Lol. Weifeng's such a bad ass! Hahaha. But well, i'd promise i won't change any views towards him. Went to CGH to look for Kailian, & went home. Oh well, going home time i'm being tortured by Michelle. Pinch, beat, poke, & whatever you can think of. Had a quarrel with her at home, & well, i won't elaborate. But all i can say is, i'll remember well enough what she say. Nah, i'm not affected (: Bathe, used laptop.. Then went to sleep til 8plus for tv show at 9pm. & i'm back here posting.

Won't be posting anything tomorrow. Not anything on Sunday either. I'll be back to post all photos on Monday :D Stay tuned people! [: Til then, ciaos~