Date : Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Time : 7:35 PM
Title : I'm turning away.

I feel like laughing at myself. I'm such a dumb, silly, stupid person. Up to now, i still don't know who betrays me. I feel so useless, i feel so unfair. I feel that life is so unfair. Certain times, i really wish i can confront her. I really want to know the truth, i don't want to be like a dummy. Acting as if nothing happens when things already have had happen. I thought i could let this matter down, because afterall.. We're still friends. But i was wrong, i can't let this matter down, because deep down.. It's affecting me badly. I don't know why either, i really wish to let this down, but i can't. I really can't bring myself to do all this. I feel like letting myself down, if ever i let this matter down. I feel as though everyone is changing. Or isit because i'm over sensitive? Sigh.. I don't know. What should i do now? What should i say? I don't understand, why is nobody reacting? Why is there no reaction from like anyone? I mean, not anyone.. From her? Yup, i didn't disclose name.. Because, i only suspect. After hearing two person's view, i strongly believe that whoever i suspect is really the one that betrays me. Like i told the two, i'll never trust them anymore. Tyvm, Weifeng.. For like telling me so much about 'life'? Or rather, the problems i'm facing (:
Please assure me that i can trust you(s), & you know that it's you(s) i'm talking about.

Yup, i'm feeling much more better after yesterday's bad cry (: Tyvm, for chatting with me at late night (: Tyvm, for calling me even when you used prepaid & we still chatted for 2hours. Don't worry, like i told you.. Whatever that can't be said, i won't say, rest assured.. Nobody will know it, except for me ya? Not to worry, i won't betray you like how others betrayed me. Yup, you don't betray me as well alright? (:

Condition between me & (fillinthename) ain't getting any better. Things are worse, & i didn't hope for any better. I won't be expecting things to be fine for us anymore. Things are this way, & seriously.. I'm speechless. But yup, even if things are this way.. I believe i'm gonna be strong & walk this through (: I'm glad at least, that you told me that you're sick. No, definitely not happy because you're sick. But i'm glad that at least you replied me, finally. Yes, after 2 days of not talking.. Finally, you replied today. & of cos, i'm glad (: &, you're sick.. Please take good care of yourself alright? See a doctor if needed, & please.. Don't act strong if you yourself know that you can't. Lastly, please do remember.. That i'm always here for you :D

Alright, i'll be back. When i got the chance to use laptop again. So yup, til then. Ciaos~