Date : Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Time : 6:34 PM
Title : I wish i could

It was a pretty bad day for me yesterday. Well, how should i say it? My mood was rather low after receiving a msg from him. Damn sad, & i asked Weifeng to call me. He called, & said something.. I started dropping tears. & wanted to hang the phone, cos i didn't want him to hear me cry. But he managed to make me smile afterthat. Went back room after my tv show, & i really don't know why i started crying like a crazy women. Serious, i cried til i nearly vomitted. Cried & cried for like an hour before i finally fell asleep. & that could explain my swollen eyes today :/

Today, woke up late & wanted to give school a miss. Well, i went to toilet & look at the mirror, i was rather shock with my eyes. It was rather swollen & pain. But still, went to school. Gave P.E a miss & went off with Weifeng, Wilson, & Zhiyin to Tampines Mall to look for Yeetheng, & Michelle to catch the movie, 'Taken'. & seriously, i was feeling so nervous when i walked pass there. Well, cos Yeetheng told me that she saw him. & yup, that explains. The movie was extremely cooooool, it was uber exciting okay! :D I thought it was a rather boring movie, cos it's like those action movie. But well, it turns out otherwise. At least to me, it's nice. Ended & went off, they so nice to like accompany me. & thanks luhs, Weifeng :D Although afterall it fails, but well.. You're still so nice to me [: Headed home aftermath.

I'm fine already, serious :D Although i've said countless times that i want to forget him but i didn't.. But well, i guess this time round, there's nothing i could do but to let this relationship go. No matter how much i couldn't do it, i know i gotta do it, so that i could smile like how i used to again. I can't say i like you, i can't say i don't. But i really wish, i know what my mind's thinking. I can't promise that i can forget him soon, cos everything needs time. Don't ask me how long i need, cos i myself also don't know how long i need to stand up once again after this huge blow.

Alright, til then. Ciaos~