Fake smiles, fake laughters.. Are more to be seen in me these days. Today, i don't know why, from the minute i wake up.. Until now, i didn't put on a smile on me. I didn't want to wake up, i wanted to sleep more. I'd rather dream, than to face the reality. Reality is too cruel, i guess. Today's the last day of March, this March isn't a good month, really really a bad month for me. I thought that things will be just fine for me & love, but i'm wrong. One thing i'm right is, this is just for temporary. Silly? Naive? Or whatever you can think of. When will we be able to meet, this question is plant in my mind.. I just can't this question out of my head. Cos, i haven't want to let go ): I know i can't do it, i know i can't. I don't want to try, cos i don't want to cry again.. Cried, til i know what my tears taste like. Cried, til my tears dried up. No more tears to drop, no more tears to cry again.

我好累，我不懂我想要些什么。我有想过不要活了。有时活在这个世界上让我觉得好累好累。 想要放手却做不到。欺骗自己他还爱我，还疼爱和关心我，好痛苦。很多人告诉我他不值得我怎样等，我也不想等下去，但是我做不到。他真的真的对我很重要，我不想失去他。我不能想象那一天我没有了他。是我太笨了吗？嗨~

Often encouraging people to let go, if they are tired. Now i know, how difficult it is.. To actually let go. To actually forget about him & move on. Guys? They're so capable of hurting girls. Guys? They're so capable of forgetting someone fast. Nowadays, i'm starting to despise every single guys. I've the urge of taking a knife & stab every guys, til they drop dead. Am i weird? To have this thinking in mind? I don't know ):

L: The lies that your heart tells me, even though it says that you love me.. All I see is pain and misery. Seasons may change, but I can't forget the days we spent together. Will things stay? I don't know, i really don't know. All this come, when will it go? You said you understand me, but.. How well you do? Do you know how much i need you? Do you know how much you meant to me? You don't know, if you know.. You'll never hurt me, so much so much with your actions & doings. You always wipe away my tears when others make me cry, will you wipe away my tears when you make me cry? This is a good question, because i don't know how to answer the question :/

I think i'm getting sick soon ): Kept having severe headaches, & don't feel like moving at all. I keep dropping hair okay! ): Like anytime i'll become botak like that lo! Or i've brain cancer? Maybe.. It's better if i've it.