Date : Friday, March 13, 2009
Time : 11:00 PM
Title : Will time ever turns back?

Like i mention in previous post, i'll enjoy today :D i did, at least enjoy myself today. School today was fineeeee. Wasn't late as well. Daddy fetch me to school, & he say he'll check out the pink notebook for me :D thanks daddy! I love youuu. Cos daddy promised me if my sugar level goes down, he'll buy me a notebook. Hehheh. I'm so happy okey. Lol. Reached school, & realised that i forgotten to bring my ez-link card out. Tsktsk ): Waited for Sarah & co to come before going up to class. Yeh, lesson was fine :D raining heavily when coming to end of OFC lesson. Tsktsk. But nice enough, Pearline accompany to take bus 12. Must be wondering how we walk to bus 12 right? Hahahahaha. Pearline brought a umbrellaaaaa. But small one lo. Hais, still must walk under the rain. But it was funnnn!~ Long time since i walk under the rain anyway. Lol.

Reached home, bathe & stuffs. Asked them to leave house, while i'm still at home searching high & low for my ez-link card. Lols, Sarah & Wilson is nice enough to travel to Pasir Ris to meet me up before going to City hall :D great! Hahahaha. Meet up with Pearline, Zhiyin & Amanda at Tampines station :D & my dear Zhiyin never tie her hair. Lol. Met up with Weifeng at City hall, & headed to Pizza Hut for lunch :D Weifeng brought his jacket for meeeee. It was HUGE okey! Really hugeeeee. Lol. Wanted to watch a movie, so headed to cinema to buy tickets for Coming Soon. First time watching horror movies at cinema okey! So i insisted on sitting in between Wilson & Weifeng. Went around to walk, started to emo again ): Cos he didn't msg me the whole day. So yeh, walked away without telling them. They came finding me aftermath, went back to the cinema. & i ignored Weifeng, for he said he don't want sit beside me ): I cried okey, cos he really never sit beside me. Went out, & cried rather badly.. Called Zhiyin & tell her i scared. Went back in, & realise Weifeng sit beside me already :D mood was cheered up of cos. Lols. The movie is real scary okey! Then i keep cover my ears & eyes, he keep laughing at me. Tsktsk. Throughout the whole movie, he's busy laughing! Hais, but certain part is funnyyyy :D but scary ): Storyline not bad, just.. Sound effect too scary already. Lols. Movie ended around 7plus like that. It was freezingggg! I was shivering okey, even when i'm wearing the hugeeee jacket._. Weifeng gave the idea of going to the IT Show. Gahhh :C that totally spoils my mood. Ignored him again, hais. I hate pushing here & there with people, still ask me to stand with the crowd._. Me & Pearline lost the two of them, so met outside instead :/ Dinner at foodcourt, & mood was better :D brought Weifeng's jacket home, for some reasons :/ Don't wish to elaborate further about that :D only me, Weifeng & Pearline knows. Lol.

After dinner, went to Minitoons. Serious, i don't feel like going off ): Cos i saw a pig bolster! Tsktsk, Weifeng wanted to buy for me. But too expensive already. Hais. I super sad okey! Left City hall around 9plus for home :D somethings happen, only Pearline knows. Until now, i'm still super scared okey! )': Super scared of the hair! Lol, go watch the movie, & you'll know what i'm talking about. I scared, i scared, i scared )': Hope tonight i can get to sleep, if not i'm gonna bomb Weifeng's phone ): I super scared okey, first & the last time i'm gonna watch horror movies in cinema )':

; The whole day, 3 msges. Are you happy with the progress that i've made? Are you happy that i've send you lesser msges? Though i didn't msg you much, but that doesn't mean i don't miss you. Infact, i missed you badly. How i wish, it was you beside me instead of someone else. How i wish, you're there for me today. When i was scared, crying helplessly. How i wish, but it all never came true. Should i say that.. It's fate that's playing us? Seems that, we no longer have anymore paths to walk. Seems that, this is the ending.. We no longer can turn back & walk on. I miss you, i miss you badly. Times with you, was greatly missed as well. How about you? Did you think about me before you sleep? Did you missed me, at least for a min everyday? I know that whatever i'm typing here is rubbish, for i know.. You'll never see this. You said i don't understand, but.. Do you understand me well enough to know that i need you badly now during this period of time? You don't understand, you'll never understand. For you never want to listen to my explanations. When i asked you whether i'm some kinda extra in your life, you simply brush off everything by saying.. I don't understand your msg. You know what i meant by sending you that msg. You know that i'm asking you whether to end this, but you never say to end. So am i suppose to wait helplessly for your turn back? I miss you, so much so much. Til the extend, i tried means & ways just to see you.. Even for a second, i'm contented. Will things ever get better? I'm wondering. When then can i realise, we're never meant to be? When then can i wake up, from this dream. I'm wondering if it's true, that i'm nothing without you.

Shall end here, photos will be up soon :D byeeeee.