Date : Monday, March 16, 2009
Time : 6:10 PM
Title : I'm tired of all these.

I thought.. Today i could have a proper post, but i guess not. I totally have no mood into blogging a proper post, i just have got so much to say.

What are friends for? Yea, i admit.. I'm crazy, hyper, kept on having moodswings. But, ain't i a good friend? Hais, i don't know what to say. I'm speechless.
; I guess you'll read it, so yea.. I'll just type down what i want to say here. If nobody tells me, are you intending to hide from me, forever? Hais, i'm disappointed in you. I'm speechless, how well i treat you.. You should know it well from the bottom of your heart. So well, how did you treat me in return? Lol, great. I'm like a fool for you to play around with. I'm sorry then, sorry for not meeting what you expect from a friend. I know i failed you badly, sorry then. Maybe i'm not well enough to be your friend. I'm sorry, & thanks for everything.

Seriously, i've so many questions to ask. Why isit that both sides are telling me different things? Two different stories, said by one person. Two other different stories when i asked the person itself. Seriously, who am i suppose to believe? So tiring. Can this just stop? Don't i've enough things to be bothered about? Why isit that i still have to handle all these matters as well? This is crap, serious. I feel no love coming from friends, i feel that i'm being left alone. The feelings inside sucks, i feel so useless. Hais, i don't know what to do. I really don't know how. I don't know how to face certain people, i don't know how to talk to certain people now. I feel that.. Whatever i'm doing is wrong, whatever i say is wrong either. I'm shutting myself down from friends, don't ask me why. I don't know why either, hais. Maybe.. It's true that i'm crazy. It's true that.. I'm still a baby, who don't know how to think ):

Today.. Other than that, i'm very happy :D yea, seriously very happy okey. I saw loveeeee, & i'm super happy about that. I went down there to look at him, seriously like drama. I super sad, cos i didn't see him outside. So yea, Zhiyin went inside, & i followed behind her.. Seriously, i nearly pee inside my shorts. I open the door, just wanting to shout for Zhiyin right, i saw his head. Lol. Cool right? I guess, my eyes too small or something. Tsktsk. & to my surprise, he replied my msg already :D seriously am happy, yea.. Hahahahaha. I know i sounds crazy, but reallyyyyy. I'm happy :D he cut his hair, & he become fatter le. Tsktsk.

Pearline, Zhiyin:
I'm sorry. For making you both left being sandwiched in between. I thank you both so much for being there for me when i need someone, thanks for accompanying me go anywhere i want to :D thanks. & you, L.ZY.. Thanks for today :D you both are so lovedddd by me alright. Lol.

Sarah:
I'm sorry, for like attitude you these days. I'm sorry for hurting you so much. I don't know what's happening either. I guess, things is changing. But i hope you know this, i still love you okey :D still can sspeak to me when you need someone to talk to (: