Date : Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Time : 7:40 PM
Title : I need a break.

Suddenly, i realise how precious life is to me. Unhappy things happened, i always thought of dying & stuffs.. But after today, i know i should cherish my life more. I was afraid, til i shiver. Serious, i was very scared that my health have got something wrong ): But, luckily.. Nothing happens.

Speaking of it.. I went to see doctor today morning. Really, i dragged myself to the polyclinic at 8am. Doctor say i sprained my back ): That's why will pain. She gave some medicine to eat, to relieve the pain.. But it don't works ): Was super pain during OSA lesson, so yep.. I ate it. Was super duper bitter okeys! But i'm a good girl, i manage to swallow it. Serious, i can't swallow at first. I drank water, still can't swallow ): Then afterthat, i forced myself to swallow. Yes.. Like small kid eating medicine like that. Okey, i was super drowsy aftermath. Serious, i feel that i'm flying. I felt so light okey. I feel that i'm floatingggg. I wanted to sit on the chair, but i missed it :/ I just felt so sleepy, & giddy. Gahhh :C went for P.E, i told mates something.. & deciding to go for a check up. Yeetheng & Michelle accompany me go for the checkup, serious.. I was scared. Really really scared. Bloodtest & stuffs, turns out that my sugar level is 5.3, ain't sure whether isit okey anot. But doctor say quite high. I ain't sure, gotta go back for another checkup next week. Bloodtest is uber pain okeys )':

Same old thing, yesterday.. I cried myself to sleep again )': Yes, i feel so miserable inside. Hai, 1 week is coming to an end soon.. Yet i haven't got the chance to see love. I feel that.. We no longer have fate. Yes, we're still in contact & stuffs. I'm already trying hard not to contact him. It's hard, really very hard. Saying i don't miss him, saying i don't like him anymore is all lies. I miss him, i miss him alot alot. I like him, still. Nothing change, esp.. My feelings towards him. I know i'll disappoint my friends badly if i'm still close with him. But.. I'm already trying )': Please don't be disappointed with me okeys :/ Give me time, i'll let go of everything.. In due time.

Yep, i'm crazy these days. Laughing, joking, disturbing people. Yes, the reason why i'm like this is because i want to keep myself from thinking all sorts of negative stuffs. That's the only solution left ): Nothing else, i just need to cheer myself up :D tomorrow i'm having SBM role play, & OSA access exam. Lol, please wish my goodluck alright. Hopefully, i won't be late for the exam tomorrow. Or not... Gah gah gah, dead~

Anyway...
Regarding about my back & health... Thanks for the concern, though today's result shows that there's nothing wrong.. But then the doctor say that this is not the accurate one. The accurate one will be next week, so yep.. Wish me good luck :D i very sad ): Now i'm being ban from so many things. Sweet especially! I sad, i uber sad, i super sad. No sweet = No life okey! )': But for the sake of my health.. I gotta learn how to say NO to sweet :/ & even sweet drinks okey! Imagine how i'm gonna spend my whole day with no sweet drinks? ): Nevermind, i'll try.

P/S: please hope that i'll be alright. & please keep tags coming in :D
Alright, i'll be back tomorrow. Byeeeeee :D