I very sad ): Yes, very very sad. This post will be a sad one. Don't bother reading if you've comments to whatever i'm gonna say.
- I cried badly in school today. First time crying so hard, really the first time. Everything just come out suddenly, i don't know how to handle it well ): I was standing at the railing outside one of the classroom at level 3. Looking downstair, many things come into my mind. I cried hard, when all things came to my mind.. I've the urge of jumping down.. Really, ain't joking. I just felt that.. My live is meaningless. I cried even harder when i saw my posts. I don't know why either ): I just feel very very sad. I went home with Weifeng, he made me smile again (: But i cried again afterthat ): I didn't talk to him at all, he accompany me to Pasir Ris before taking train back. I just.. Very very sad today ):

I felt that i'm a big loser in life. I felt that i'm just a piece of junk in this world. These days, i haven't been myself. I felt that i'm changing, i don't know.. I don't know what i'm changing to. Day & day, i felt that.. Nobody understand me anymore ): I told one that.. I've took in alot alot. But.. He told me that, i've not take in alot yet. Yes, i can't take jokes. I cry easily these days. I don't know why either ): I just feel like crying & crying. Nothing helps, except for crying.

I think it through.. I thought about alot of things today. I want him to go. I want to let go of him ): I want to start anew, i want to forget him ): Reading all his msg-es he sent me.. Make me cried badly. Make me feel like dying. I'm such a big loser whenever i'm in love. One said.. Since he can put this down so fast, why can't you? I've been thinking about this question for very long.. I don't know what's the answer to it, & i no longer have the courage to know what's the answer ): Me & him, we've gone through alot. Comments & critics from others, & everything. We're able to go through that well. But now.. This held me back. I feel that, i've no more strength to go on. I've no more strength to hold on to this. I'm tired, i'm very very tired ): I know i can forget him, i know i can do it.

; Love, please don't stay me anymore ): I don't know, maybe.. I can't take it. I can't take it that you always are cold to me ): I can't take it that you always ignore me. I'm very sad. When i cried, you were not there for me anymore. I'm always worry about you.. I'm.. Just crazy. Worry whether have you ate your medicine.. Worry whether did you cover your blanket when you're sick ): I don't know what i'm so worry about. I'm scared, scared of losing you. I've many dreams, dreams that i lose you. I'm really really scared. Time passes fast, we've knew each other for almost 1.5 years. I'm glad, to have you as my love. You're there for me nevertheless. No matter how much anger i vent it on you, you'll still be there to hold on to me. Time passes, everything drift apart. Until today.. Our talks & everything is cold. We don't exchange many msg-es like we do in the past ): I'm sad, i'm sad that we're this way right now. What can i do? The only thing i could do.. To stop myself from crying is.. To let you go & move on with life. I can't imagine how am i gonna spend the days without you. I can't imagine how long will i take to move on from where i've stopped. I hope.. I can do it in the shortest time. I hope.. I can move on soon ):

You were the one who I could tell my deepest fears. & you were the one who always wiped away my tears. Now that you've left me behind, who will dry my tears when I cry? Who will be there for me? & who can i turn to?

I need to be alone. I'm depressed, i'm sad.. I'm crazy, i'm weird..
Tomorrow i'm going to see you, i don't know whether will you be there anot. I'll see.. If fate is playing with me, i won't get to see you ):

Ended post with tears,
Tiffany.