Date : Monday, March 9, 2009
Time : 6:41 PM
Title : Crazy thoughts.

I'm disappointed, i'm speechless. Deep down, asking how much i do likes you.. Deep down, asking how much you meant to me. Really, i've gone speechless. I no longer know how to answer myself. Asking myself how much hurt i've gotten from you. Asking myself how much tears i've waste on you. Countless, really countless. I don't know how much i like you. I don't know how much you actually meant to me. I'm disappointed, really )': I tried to stop thinking of you, i tried to do other things to stop me from thinking.. But i can't. Whenever i'm alone, things get out of hand. All your images flow back into my mind once again. I really dislike myself, from thinking so much. I sent you many msg-es, you never want to reply me ): I'm sad, really very sad. I'm disappointed, really disappointed. I've so much wanting to tell you.. I've so much words wanting to hear from you. I miss your voice, love ): I miss everything. All these come so fast.. All these end so fast as well, i really am missing you okey )':

Yesterday.. You tell me that you're sick, tired after a long day. Saying that you don't feel like talking.. I'm sorry, sorry for irritating you. I'm sorry, for not knowing that you're sick ): Treat it as i'm still a kid, i don't understand you well enough.. But, does that mean you can ignore me? )': Is there a reason for you to ignore me? Hais, treat it as i'm thinking too much. I hate myself for dropping tears every now & then. It's tiring.. Tired of crying, really. I've been crying for the past few days. Never fail, i'll cry everyday. I don't know how to control my tears )': Love, i really miss you.. So much so much ):

Thank you very much, for making me cry for you over & over again.

P/S: tomorrow i'm going for bloodtest.. Please hope that i'll be alright, or not.. I'll never blog again.