Date : Saturday, February 28, 2009
Time : 5:34 PM
Title : You, is enough.

Didn't want to update. But well, i was already using the computer & i've nothing to do as well, i'll just updateee :D yesterday was a great night...
- Went over to the chalet to check-in with mummy then went to NTUC to buy those needed stuffs for night BBQ. Weifeng reached at around 10plus, Allan accompanied me to go fetch me :D my girls reached next, this time round.. Weifeng & Allan accompanied me. Hahahaha. My dajiu say i got two bodyguards. Lols! Okay.. Wilson came at last, went to cheers to buy somethings before heading back to the chalet. We played UNO first, it was fun :D played until mummy, daddy or go home.. We're all hungry, wanting to go for Macdonalds.. But cancelled the idea cos Weifeng didn't want Macdonalds._. Alright, walk all the way to central for supper. Afterthat, i don't know why i've a bad stomache. Not that i want to go toilet, but like got hundreds of needles poking my stomach ): Okay, headed back to chalet.. My girls infront was laughing like mad for don't know what reason._. I was laughing like mad because of the way Weifeng walks. Like crap. LOL. Bathe & stuffs, Wilson showed us magic. It was amazing, but kena see through already. Hahahaha. Played heart-attack aftermath :D laugh & shouted like crazy, but it was late already.. So didn't play long :/ Yep, went outside for chit-chatting :D played Truth or Dare. Not really play.. It's just me & Weifeng asking each other crap questions. But whatever, it was nice. Around 5plus 6am like that, Allan is going back. So yep, he went home & we went back to the room to decide whether to go home or stay. After really long considerations, decided to go home. Went separate ways with my girls & Wilson. While me & Weifeng took cab home. Reached home, change & stuffs, went to bed around 7plus going 8am. & i just wakeup not long ago, 5plus :D not a nice sleep ): I'm having a headache now! ):

Alright, i'm going chalet later on again. Not gonna stay there already, very tired though. Anyway, thanks guys & girls for accompanying me the whole night. & you, thanks most :D you sacrifice your sleep time just to accompany me. You're working the next day, yet not wanting to sleep just to accompany me. Thanks, dumb (:

Alright, i've other things to update.
; Dumb, thanks for everything you've done for me. Thanks for accompanying wherever i go. I know i didn't cherish you, i know i neglected you at times. I know if incident didn't happen last year, we'll still be together. Thanks for loving me still no matter how much i make you do things you don't like. Yes, i'm touched. Really really touched. But still.. I can't forget someone easily, for you know. Yes, i know with my love right now.. It won't last long. It won't be long.. But at least, i know that with him.. He can give me what i want. I need time, i need time to forget him. Maybe.. I should start to have less contact with my love now. Then.. I can forget him in due time. You're the one, i took for granted all these years. I didn't know, i really didn't know.. Up to today, you're still loving me. Thanks for the faithfulness, & everything. Yes, remain as close friends. Thanks for the soft toy :D i loveeeeee it. Hehheh.

; WF, after yesterday's talk.. I might have a little understanding about what you're thinking. What kind of person you are. I know, i might not reach your expectations of a friend. I'm weird, in your eyes. I might tell you why, why am i this way one fine day. Just.. The rest of the year, we'll not quarrel anymore. I know it's impossible, but i'll try. Try not to quarrel with you even if you did something wrong.

; Love, sometimes.. I'm wondering whether is this right holding you back. I'm wondering whether is this right, to go for something impossible. You often scold me & say me, wanting me to change for the better. Wanting me to be a little more selfish, wanting me to think for myself. How am i suppose to think when i know whether thinking anot is still the same? Thanks, for sometimes wanting to wake me up from all these stupid thinkings. That's my life, my fate i suppose. Love, i know people always put a full stop when i want to say that me & you are not impossible. Yes, i know that this will end soon. Our relationship is turning sour, soon. At least, i know that this period with you, was the most happiest days in my life. I rather had bad times with you, i rather be with someone i like. Although we're always hiding from this & that, but i'm getting used to it. Even if i've second chance, third chance, fourth chance.. I'll still choose you, over all the others. You change my life, you change everything. Nobody will understand how much you meant to me. You make me cry, with all those words you say over msn ): Harsh, but i know you meant well. Thanks love. You're lovedddd :D

Okay, i'm going to bathe now & head over to chalet. So yep, that's all. Toodles~

Date : Thursday, February 26, 2009
Time : 7:42 PM
Title : I miss you, love.

MY STOMACH CRAMP ): I've moodswings today. I'm crazy, sad, happy & whatever you can think of. Lols, i know this is crap.. But i drank milk tea when i know today i'll come. Great, eh? Please clap for me, cos my stomach cramp like hell ): Panadols don't work luhs, hai. I won't drink milk tea anymore.. I should have listen to love, not drinking teaaaa! I regret, i regret, i regret! ): Haiiii~

Anyway.. School's fine today. Weifeng bought me a soft toy! :D a big big big big one. Hehheh. Super duper cuteeee~ Okay, wanting to give OFC lesson a miss.. But mummy wants me to attend. So i'm a good girl :D hehheh. Took cab home, as it's still raining. & i need to protect my piggg!~ Lols, i know this is crap.. But they're my baby okay! :D Tomorrow & Saturday i won't be updating. I'll be overnight-ing at chalet (: So yep, i'll be back either on Sunday or Monday. Hahahahaha.

I'm disappointed. Now i realise, i really cannot trust certain people even when they've already promised me not to say out anything. You said you won't, what's happening now? I'm disappointed in you, really i am. You said you didn't say anything, then what did i saw in your msg? Yes, i invade your privacy. I didn't respect you. But have you respect me? You didn't. I told you many times not to, yet you failed you do so. Lies, eh? How many more lies have you made up? Can you please get yourself clear? This is so crap, like fuck, uh? LOL, i'm like a fcuking fool. Believing you all this while, great of me. For being so naive, uh? Like shit. Never, will i give you my trust again (:

; If you dislike me, tell me straight to my face. I sense it, eh? The way i see your expression when you see me walking pass you, makes me feel like slapping you. You give me a bad impression. & really, i know that this bad impression is gonna stay through. Nothing's gonna change, I won't bother talking to you. I know it myself, i don't see a need doing things i dislike, aye? Lols, stop thinking that you're so great. It's the fact that you're being 'used'. First time seeing someone so stupid not to even sense that she's being 'used'. Lols, great. I'm gonna see this show going on (: No, i'm not evil. I've told her from the start, it's she who's acting stupid to do all these crap. Get this right up into your(s) brain before coming to say i'm bad or whatsoever okay. Lol, crap. This world is changing, eh._.

Okay, byeeeee :D

Date : Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Time : 7:31 PM
Title : Tell me, that this is gonna stay.

I know i'm crazy. Switching here & there.. But, whatever it is.. I'm gonna stay using this link for a very long time :D yep, i'm sure. Hehheh.

I abit don't bear to leave my livejournal ): Cos there's alot of memories i written up there, & i wants to continue using livejournal. But.. Livejournal is way too lag. For my computer i think. Hai ): So anyway, i won't delete it :D

Yesterday
I can't really remember what happened during school. So yep.. After school, mummy come fetch me & sister to Century Square. Went for lunch at Sakae Sushi. Gahhh :C wasted money to go there lo. The food is like the same & i don't really like it. That's the first time there, & it shall be the very last time there :) Yep, went home aftermath. Uber tired, & fell asleep in car :/ Slept at 8plus, waking up at 10plus with Chanel msg-ing me. Can't sleep back, so was msg-ing with Sarah :D & i tell love that i can't sleep, i very sad.. He give me a shock with his reply of his. He give me goodnight kiss. Lols, i know it's not shocking or whatsoever, but.. It's his first time sending me! :D & i'm happy of cos. Hehheh. Manage to sleep back, for i've headache ):

Today
I woke up at 8plus :D i'm not late for school today! A big round of applause for me please. Hehheh. Yep, met up with clique before going up to class. Lesson was fine, all the way til Weifeng came. Yes.. Quarrels again. But nah.. That's fine :D we'll always be fine afterthat. Lols. Went cafe 2 during break :D i don't know what's wrong with me, & i went crazy during OSA lesson. I kept disturbing Amirah, & i kept laughing. Hahahaha, i think something up there of mine is disconnected or something? Whatever~ P.E lesson was not great ): I ran two rounds! & gotta do my 3 stations. Hai, i failed 2 stations.. But teacher say to pass all for me :D hehheh, hopefully it's true. Cafe 2 aftermath to find the girls, sat down & chit chat :D mummy came afterthat, went to buy lunch & home sweet home. Love transferred me $30 to spend :D he's so niceeee. If he knows i want to use his money to buy soft toy, he's gonna give me a big scolding. Hahahaha. But nope.. Ain't gonna anyhow waste his money :D

I very sleepy ): I said to do my powerpoint project, til now.. I haven't even start yet. Gahhh :C this is getting to nowhere ): I very sad.. Cos i lazy to do my project. Hai. Nevermind, i'll start soon.. Yes, very soon. Maybe starting of March :D i'll have enough time to finish by 19 March, i think. Hehheh.

P/S: I miss you, my 3 ladies. I miss you, love ):
Okay, byeeee :D will be back tomorrow.

; I'm disappointed, i'm speechless. I wish i could turn back the time, i wish i could stop everything that's happening right now. This seems to be a drama, it's totally crap. Why should i bother so much about this thing? Never once you people care so much, yeh? Why should i now? Can't you people see i'm shutting myself towards you? Can't you see i've become quieter these days? Am i just sensitive, or is that i'm just too over it? Omfg, this is seriously crap. I hate this.